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I found this book very helpful in approaching some of the things OP talks about. https://www.amazon.com/Anger-Cooling-Thich-Nhat-Hanh/dp/1573229377 https://www.amazon.com/Anger-Cooling-Thich-Nhat-Hanh/dp/1573... Also, check your blood pressure regularly every morning and evening, for a few weeks. You could be non-symptomatically hypertensive (for all sorts of reasons); talk to your doctor if you find your blood pressure consistently on the higher side.