I hope you don't. I've been depressed in the past as well and had been contemplating killing myself. I became very depressed after my parents and sister died in

I hope you don't. I've been depressed in the past as well and had been contemplating killing myself. I became very depressed after my parents and sister died in a car accident. Eventually my remaining brothers and sister convinced me to visit a shrink. And now I have a very positive outlook on life and overall am very happy. I hope you consider the same. Or ask people to help you arrange a meeting with a shrink.