Your parents and grandparents worked hard to put you in the situation you are in now. If anything the expectations for you are much higher than everyone else.

Your parents and grandparents worked hard to put you in the situation you are in now. If anything the expectations for you are much higher than everyone else. Are you sure you're not self-sabotaging because you're subconsciously afraid of failure and by not trying you always have a good excuse when things don't go well? You have to stop with the guilt. You're the carrier of your family legacy; take responsibility and apply yourself. If that doesn't work, hurry up and get married and have kids. You may not have a problem sabotaging yourself but surely you wouldn't do that if you were responsible for children.