It sounds like maybe you're being a little too hard on yourself. The only person telling you that you have to be a millionaire by age X, or that you have to ge

It sounds like maybe you're being a little too hard on yourself. The only person telling you that you have to be a millionaire by age X, or that you have to get a job right this minute, or that your project has to be completely perfect is you. It maybe sounds cliched, but I say just do the best you can and set expectations realistically. If you're not getting callbacks for jobs it doesn't mean you suck - it probably just means your resume/CV or your approach needs to be tweaked. Maybe let some other people look things over and see what they think? You're obviously motivated, so I think you're one step ahead of a lot of people already...