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>The night ended when she declared that I would never understand her relationship with Lola. Never. Her voice was so guttural and pained that thinking of it eve
by hitekker 9y ago
>The night ended when she declared that I would never understand her relationship with Lola. Never. Her voice was so guttural and pained that thinking of it even now, so many years later, feels like a punch to the stomach. It’s a terrible thing to hate your own mother, and that night I did. The look in her eyes made clear that she felt the same way about me.
The mother makes me wonder if losing your humanity means becoming an animal.
- anigbrowl 9y agoFor a lot of people with experience of abuse, animal relationships are arguably superior to human ones because animals are more emotionally reliable. Another way to look at this is to consider humans as eusocial animals and speculate on whether someone is more concerned with their identity/position within a given or monolithic social body or their position as a discrete conscious individual. Over time the dichotomy between these positions might result in acute psychic stresses. There's a conjectural argument that schizoid tendencies are an evolutionary remnant of social organization, most famously explore din Jaynes' The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind, which is worth reading even if you reject his thesis.
- sgt101 9y agoI guess that being human means being part of a human society, and the acts of someone who loses their humanity means that they are excluded from human society.