it's ok, it's a legitimate question. it's just a bit hard to answer without sounding like I'm victimizing myself because people tend to feel like when enough ba

it's ok, it's a legitimate question. it's just a bit hard to answer without sounding like I'm victimizing myself because people tend to feel like when enough bad things happen to someone it must partially be their fault. But here is a tldr. I had a bullshit drug conviction from high school when an underage and unlicensed driver rear-ended my friend and I and he had a small amount of pot in his booksack that I didn't know about. The case took two years and about eight appearances, six or so conflicting testimonials by officers present at the scene, and I was given the maximum penalty possible. I couldn't get a decent job because of the charge and I was being extorted monthly for money by the government. I had no support from family and ended up taking what I could as far as housing arrangements, leading to me getting robbed about half a dozen times by various roommates over the years for a total of a few thousand dollars. I was still learning CS in my free time so I was limited to part time minimum wage jobs and had no disposable income. I developed heart palpitations and visited the ER, but they laughed at me and gave me a bunch of useless crap and scans related to my lungs, didn't look at my heart, then gave me a receipt for a sum that vastly outweighed what I was told I would be expected to pay. I was diagnosed with costochondritis, and amazingly, because I mentioned I had smoked marijuana before in my life, I was also diagnosed with "marijuana abuse". I have not paid this medical bill and I consider the experience insulting and unprofessional. My sister later developed heart palpitations as well, and when she visited the ER she was also discharged with costochondritis. She also owes a hefty hospital bill now. Neither of us know what is wrong with us and have ~1k of debt to show for it. Neither of us can afford more debt because we look in fear at the debt our mother has yet to pay off. Without insurance or a health care credit card with high interest rates, you're usually expected to pay up front for health care. When I had these dental emergencies and blood infections, I never had enough money up front for the healthcare due to the circumstances described above, and I was not going to rack up another 1k in the ER just to get antibiotics. So it always ended up being only feasible to source them through both friends (who shouldn't have leftover antibiotics) and actual antibiotic distributors.