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It's the year of divorice/widowhood that is the low mark, but afterwards people recover. Doesn't that make sense? That are still in the negatives as far as lif

It's the year of divorice/widowhood that is the low mark, but afterwards people recover. Doesn't that make sense? That are still in the negatives as far as life satisfaction goes. My close friend killed himself nearly 4 years ago. The first year was really bad, the second year was just a little better. And now, ya know, I'm mostly back to myself. Life satisfaction isn't a finite resource that you can only lose, you can rebuild it.

jschwartzi 10y ago
Indeed, and often you rebuild it by taking better care of yourself.
ianamartin 10y ago
I feel you. My best friend did the same when I was in my mid 20s, and it really wrecked me. 14 years later, I _still_ sometimes have a really hard time with it. I still visit his parents once a year and play my violin for them--the same piece he requested in his suicide note that I play at his funeral. For a couple of years after he died, I was really angry and depressed--perfect mood for a classical musician, really. But I wasn't getting any better. After a while, I decided to start trying to understand what was in his head better. He was always a brilliant Mathematician and Software Developer and Philosopher. I was into tech at the hobbyist level. Purely as a curiosity. So I started reading all the books I inherited from him, and over time the projects he was always talking about and the goals and dreams he had . . . started to make sense to me. Eventually, I decided to chase some of his dreams for him, and that got me started down the path I've been on ever since. At first I worked on his dreams and took them as far as I could make sense of them. Then I started realizing I was forming my own dreams and goals wrt technology stuff. And I started chasing those. I have a good life now. Better and happier than I was as a musician. I was a far happier person 4 years after he died than I was before he died. He changed my life and opened up a world to me that I didn't know about while he was alive. And he did it again after he died. I'm sure that with the suicide rates being what they are in the U.S. that most people have been touched in some way by this particular pain. Though it's easy for me to forget that on a particular day every year. Sounds like you're dealing with it in a healthy way. Hang in there when it gets tough. It gets less and less tough over time, and eventually, you get to a point where the feelings hit you on your terms, when you're ready for them, and you plan out your response in advance, and you can be honestly positive about how you deal with it--a point where the happiness that this person was a part of your life outweighs the sadness of the loss: a genuine appreciation of a wonderful human being. Sorry for your loss.

jschwartzi 10y ago

Indeed, and often you rebuild it by taking better care of yourself.

ianamartin 10y ago

I feel you. My best friend did the same when I was in my mid 20s, and it really wrecked me. 14 years later, I _still_ sometimes have a really hard time with it. I still visit his parents once a year and play my violin for them--the same piece he requested in his suicide note that I play at his funeral. For a couple of years after he died, I was really angry and depressed--perfect mood for a classical musician, really. But I wasn't getting any better. After a while, I decided to start trying to understand what was in his head better. He was always a brilliant Mathematician and Software Developer and Philosopher. I was into tech at the hobbyist level. Purely as a curiosity. So I started reading all the books I inherited from him, and over time the projects he was always talking about and the goals and dreams he had . . . started to make sense to me. Eventually, I decided to chase some of his dreams for him, and that got me started down the path I've been on ever since. At first I worked on his dreams and took them as far as I could make sense of them. Then I started realizing I was forming my own dreams and goals wrt technology stuff. And I started chasing those. I have a good life now. Better and happier than I was as a musician. I was a far happier person 4 years after he died than I was before he died. He changed my life and opened up a world to me that I didn't know about while he was alive. And he did it again after he died. I'm sure that with the suicide rates being what they are in the U.S. that most people have been touched in some way by this particular pain. Though it's easy for me to forget that on a particular day every year. Sounds like you're dealing with it in a healthy way. Hang in there when it gets tough. It gets less and less tough over time, and eventually, you get to a point where the feelings hit you on your terms, when you're ready for them, and you plan out your response in advance, and you can be honestly positive about how you deal with it--a point where the happiness that this person was a part of your life outweighs the sadness of the loss: a genuine appreciation of a wonderful human being. Sorry for your loss.