Music...I've always loved music but never learned to play an instrument, the few times I tried I got so frustrated because I'm always hearing melodies/rhythmic

Music...I've always loved music but never learned to play an instrument, the few times I tried I got so frustrated because I'm always hearing melodies/rhythmic patterns in my head and could never replicate them with my rudimentary skills and terrible hand coordination, and growing up I never had enough money for lessons. In my 20's I was working and studying full time so I had no time whatsoever for hobbies and now in my 30's I have money and time but no energy or passion for music like I did when I was younger.