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Actually, it's exciting, pretty much like getting a new life after death. This really changes my attitude towards my life. In the past 8 years, I have 2-4 gran
by du_bing 9y ago
Actually, it's exciting, pretty much like getting a new life after death. This really changes my attitude towards my life.
In the past 8 years, I have 2-4 grand mal epilepsy seizures each year. Happy to be still alive, haha. Every time after a seizure, I lost one small period of memory, about 10-30 minutes, it's amazing somehow, refreshing your brain like reinstalling the macOS and restarting, though it can also cause some depression because of deep fear for uncontrolled and unpredictable seizures.
After I get back my conscious gradually after a seizure, I can hardly call back the scenarios right before my brain blows up, I can only remember roughly what I was doing then, about 5-10 minutes before the seizure, and as babies, the first sight of the world when I get my conscious will leave very strong impression in my memory, extremely clear and cut.
Now I have not had a seizure for about a whole year, in fact, I miss it to some extent:-). On the other hand, I hope I will never have it until death.
You know, humans are always full of contradictions.
- amputect 9y agoThis is a fascinating perspective, thank you for sharing.
- gsch 9y agoThis is really interesting! I can imagine it might feel quite different if, rather than having a persistent ability to ever retain short-term memories, you lost a small period every few months. The author's experience seems quite different from yours, though, and I can imagine she might disagree with your evaluation that "Actually, it's exciting".
- du_bing 9y agoYeah bro, that's right, it's not so exciting for me at all at first, but actually I have to accept all those stuff in my life anyway, I am glad that I finally reach here. Thanks!
- praneshp 9y agoI've had a couple of seizures over the last 5 years, and have the same experience you describe. I hate it though, I feel like a child :(. The last time it happened, my wife was around, so I felt somewhat comfortable asking her to walk me through what happened. Stay safe buddy, and please take your meds!
- du_bing 9y agoOh yeah, thanks, you know exactly what I am talking about, great. I have covered every inch of the floor and desk in my room with soft plastic mats and blankets, also wrapped the angles of all hard articles up with soft and thick clothes. Keeping everything around me soft and safe makes my nerves comfortable and relaxed. Hope you become better too!