I think this desire to feel like you are living a morally perfect life is strong in most people but incompatible with an honest observation of the world from ju

I think this desire to feel like you are living a morally perfect life is strong in most people but incompatible with an honest observation of the world from just about any ethical standpoint. There are an endless number of Very Bad Things in the world and an endless number of things you can personally do to improve them. Really improving how your life reflects your ethics will necessarily involve a huge amount of failure, false starts, and half measures. The best results possible will never get you that far on an absolute scale. Even when a better path is fairly clear, human beings rarely make lasting changes in behavior instantly; there tend to be a lot of details and that need to be worked out and new movement patterns to learn. It is not clear from a brief message on the internet what a person has or has not done to make such changes. Even without intentionally making changes over time, you can recognize things that other people do that are better than what you do and be more likely to copy them or otherwise be inspired from them.