I have exactly the same symptoms. My favorite sport teams always lose or some of them are out of history, are bankrupted or relegated. Some of my very good frie

I have exactly the same symptoms. My favorite sport teams always lose or some of them are out of history, are bankrupted or relegated. Some of my very good friends died or are very sick. I never found God. I'm afraid of nuclear war, earthquakes, terrorists , russian invasion, alien abductions. I have a constant fear of dark. More, I'm very fat. I live just out of curiosity, to see what can happen and how it will end. One solution is in movie Fight Club, at beginning ..try to find people under you, with cancer or other deathly ills.