"I was the first to get to him trying to assess his condition and help. Those were his last moments. There was a lot of blood and I was helpless." Those first

"I was the first to get to him trying to assess his condition and help. Those were his last moments. There was a lot of blood and I was helpless." Those first ten seconds are shocking. For me it was understanding ^control^, the lack of control and the fight to get it back. The situation you were presented @bitcharmer is binary and anything other than a win can be seen as failure. For me it took a long time to understand that whatever I did, I had no real ^control^. Understanding control, the complete lack of it, in extreme situations like the one you describe lets you move one step closer to understanding death. To understand what it is like in @bitcharmer shoes, read happened in a similar situation back in 2012 (non fatal) https://www.flickr.com/photos/bootload/7949327460 https://www.flickr.com/photos/bootload/7949327460 After this I'm one for one.