Its great that you've decided that you want out of this. In addition to the medical processes that the wonderful folks here are offering help with, you might be

Its great that you've decided that you want out of this. In addition to the medical processes that the wonderful folks here are offering help with, you might benefit from just getting your mind off your condition. Since brain processing is too tiring, you can sit by yourself in a distraction free quiet place (ex: face a wall) and count your breath for five minutes at a stretch. Just count your breath 1,2,3,..,10 and back to 1. No need to think about anything at all for those five minutes. If you lose your count, start again at one.