I really badly wanted to watch my unplanned but non-emergency C-section. I had a long, rough labor and being aware of everything going on was helping me process

I really badly wanted to watch my unplanned but non-emergency C-section. I had a long, rough labor and being aware of everything going on was helping me process everything. Besides, it is standard for non-emergency C-sections to only require regional anesthesia so I didn't think it was a big deal. Alas, I was instead treated to the sight of my anesthesiology resident trying to conceal her panic while she paged her attending because I started feeling the surgeon cut into me - not pressure or tugging, but a whole shitload of pain making me see stars. She had given me a max dose of anesthetic to achieve what she thought was an acceptable level of analgesia but apparently it wasn't good enough. I got treated to the ketamine trip of my life, and then thanked the stars for versed. Would do this again though given the chance - even with this kind of horrific one-off experience and that I don't have much memory of the surgery otherwise, I am pretty satisfied with the entire situation and how it played out. I don't know that I'm pushing back against paternalism or suspicion, I just want to sate my curiosity, you know?