I've had the luxury of never losing a family member. All of my grandparents are still alive even. I'm actually really terrified that "I'm due" to lose a bunch o

I've had the luxury of never losing a family member. All of my grandparents are still alive even. I'm actually really terrified that "I'm due" to lose a bunch of people relatively quickly. In 2015 I had to euthanize my cat. He was the most dog-like cat I've ever met, which was amazing. The vet attempted to give me "one more weekend" by sending him home with relatively powerful pain medications so I could have two more days with him before having to say goodbye, but when I got home the pain medications were ineffective and he was in horrible pain. I walked him right back to the vet and went through the euthanasia process. It was easily the saddest I've ever been; I collapsed in the vet's office when they finally took him. They let me hold him the whole time, which, as a fiercly protective cat father, was the only thing I'd have allowed anyway. Anyway, I'm really scared that I'll have to go through this or worse over the next few years. I don't know that I can handle it.