Thanks for sharing your story. I think addiction, like depression or war, can segment life into "before" and "after" periods. Before you experience it, you hav

Thanks for sharing your story. I think addiction, like depression or war, can segment life into "before" and "after" periods. Before you experience it, you have valid and interesting ideas. After you go through it, however briefly, you become humbled and scared by how you can be controlled by an ugly force, even as you fight it with the most focused energy of your life. After that, the dictatorial "I have been sober for x" makes visceral sense, and you never ever think to suggest "just one to celebrate this special occasion?" "It could never happen to me", and then it does. You find your siren, and often it's not even a drug.