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Opiate addiction is hell. Just pure unadulterated hell. I've been through a lot of hardships in life but I honestly can't begin to explain to you the amount o

by jokr004 10y ago

Opiate addiction is hell. Just pure unadulterated hell. I've been through a lot of hardships in life but I honestly can't begin to explain to you the amount of pain this has caused me. I'm currently in a methadone program after relapsing for the first time since I got clean five years ago. Just.. stay as far away from this stuff as you possibly can. It has the potential to swallow you whole.

oxryly1 10y ago
Not to pry, but did it start with a doctor's prescription for you?
- jokr004 10y ago
  It actually didn't start with a prescription.. For me it started as casual use here and there and very quickly turned into self-medication. I've had issues with depression and anxiety for a long time and opiates were a really easy way of dealing with those problems. However I can't tell you how many people I knew who started using after being prescribed opioid painkillers.
  - gefh 10y ago
    I've only ever had opioid painkillers after dental work, and it's enough to convince me that I must _never_ try heroin. You have my kind thoughts and best wishes.
    - jokr004 10y ago
      Thanks, I really appreciate it! All things considered things are actually going really well. My relationship with my SO is better than ever, my career is going well, I'm actually starting a new job next week. I managed to keep my life together through all of this, and I know I'm very lucky for that.
    - pgrote 10y ago
      I never understood how people could be addicted to drugs until the middle of the night screaming in an emergency room bed. A kidney stone was causing so much pain morphine wouldn't touch it. Unbearable. The nurse came in and put something in my IV and I just stopped. The pain stopped. I stopped talking to my wife in mid-sentence. Everything was fine. My world just stopped and I liked it. As the nurse left my wife asked what I was given and it was dilaudid, which is equal to heroin on the equianalgesic scale. It was right then I understood how people become addicted to drugs. Like you, it convinced me to never try heroin or any other opiates outside of emergency medical care.
crestedtazo 10y ago
I don't mean to diminish your experience... but "pure unadulterated hell" is having a SO that loves you, a stable place to live, sleep, and eat, as well as a stable career? If all of that is what "pure, unadulterated hell" looks like to you, I think your life really hasn't been as difficult and full of "hardships" as you would have people believe... I think the thing that would help you most would be to stop feeling like a victim. That's what helped me! Best of luck to you.
- jokr004 10y ago
  I'm not feeling like a victim, I'm extremely lucky and I know that. I admitted to that.. The unadulterated hell I was referring to is the excruciating pain that comes with opiate withdrawal... To give you some further perspective here, I was sexually abused as a child. I would rather go through that 100 times before I would go through bad withdrawal again... Fuck off.

by jokr004 10y ago

oxryly1 10y ago

Not to pry, but did it start with a doctor's prescription for you?

jokr004 10y ago
It actually didn't start with a prescription.. For me it started as casual use here and there and very quickly turned into self-medication. I've had issues with depression and anxiety for a long time and opiates were a really easy way of dealing with those problems. However I can't tell you how many people I knew who started using after being prescribed opioid painkillers.
- gefh 10y ago
  I've only ever had opioid painkillers after dental work, and it's enough to convince me that I must _never_ try heroin. You have my kind thoughts and best wishes.
  - jokr004 10y ago
    Thanks, I really appreciate it! All things considered things are actually going really well. My relationship with my SO is better than ever, my career is going well, I'm actually starting a new job next week. I managed to keep my life together through all of this, and I know I'm very lucky for that.
  - pgrote 10y ago
    I never understood how people could be addicted to drugs until the middle of the night screaming in an emergency room bed. A kidney stone was causing so much pain morphine wouldn't touch it. Unbearable. The nurse came in and put something in my IV and I just stopped. The pain stopped. I stopped talking to my wife in mid-sentence. Everything was fine. My world just stopped and I liked it. As the nurse left my wife asked what I was given and it was dilaudid, which is equal to heroin on the equianalgesic scale. It was right then I understood how people become addicted to drugs. Like you, it convinced me to never try heroin or any other opiates outside of emergency medical care.

crestedtazo 10y ago

I don't mean to diminish your experience... but "pure unadulterated hell" is having a SO that loves you, a stable place to live, sleep, and eat, as well as a stable career? If all of that is what "pure, unadulterated hell" looks like to you, I think your life really hasn't been as difficult and full of "hardships" as you would have people believe... I think the thing that would help you most would be to stop feeling like a victim. That's what helped me! Best of luck to you.

jokr004 10y ago
I'm not feeling like a victim, I'm extremely lucky and I know that. I admitted to that.. The unadulterated hell I was referring to is the excruciating pain that comes with opiate withdrawal... To give you some further perspective here, I was sexually abused as a child. I would rather go through that 100 times before I would go through bad withdrawal again... Fuck off.