for what it's worth this is the best, most resonant, description of the process that i've ever read (the whole article, not just the juggling bit) and personal

for what it's worth this is the best, most resonant, description of the process that i've ever read (the whole article, not just the juggling bit) and personally, i needed to be reminded that it's hard for other people too, that it doesn't just come out fully-formed as conventional wisdom might have you believing it should.