It sounds to me like the problem isn't that you lack motivation, it's that you lack anything to be motivated about. Motivation tends to materialize in our soul

It sounds to me like the problem isn't that you lack motivation, it's that you lack anything to be motivated about. Motivation tends to materialize in our soul in 2 ways: 1) We start something new, and interesting, that we've never seen or done before, and it excites us for a short period of time (days, weeks, even months) to pursue it. Eventually, the luster and novelty wears off, and we're left feeling a "lack of motivation". 2) NEED. True motivation, the kind that persists, comes from need. When you really need something, you'll find motivation. The problem is, from the sounds of it, you haven't convinced yourself that you truly need anything more than what you have. Have you seen the movie Inception? Perhaps the biggest underlying narrative in that movie is that an idea can grow, and consume you, even change you. You need to form in your mind somehow, that things aren't good right now, and that you need to change for them to improve. I could ramble on and give examples, but basically that's what I believe about motivation.