You described pretty well the kind of thing I went through several years back. It really changed my life in every way possible for the better. Stick with it. I

You described pretty well the kind of thing I went through several years back. It really changed my life in every way possible for the better. Stick with it. It's tough sometimes, but it'll only get better! EDIT: I recommend starting with "Wherever You Go, There You Are" -- then following up with "When Things Fall Apart" by Pema Chodron, be sure to get the audiobook AND the paperback. Really listen to it/read it. Then any book that teaches you to be responsible for yourself, you can pick from a million, straight up from Thoreau. I don't agree with 100% transparency of every little thing in relationships, but I believe that feeling that you COULD is critical. Learning that you don't have to hide who you are, that you can form relationships by being open, is tremendously liberating.