From your website you are obviously a talented kid. Not sure where you are but sounds like getting out of your immediate environment may something to try more o

From your website you are obviously a talented kid. Not sure where you are but sounds like getting out of your immediate environment may something to try more of. Without large expenses, have you tried solo pursuits in nature away from others like walking/hiking, nature photography, cycling, kayaking? Second hand bikes or kayaks are usually very cheap, many phones now have great cameras. Honestly a bit of exercise really helps with mood and outlook. Also sometimes just starting a project (eg. photography) and recording your progress can be immensely satisfying.