I'm probably a little unusual in being in my mid-30s and still not having experienced the death of a loved one. I try to tell myself it's inevitable, but I can

I'm probably a little unusual in being in my mid-30s and still not having experienced the death of a loved one. I try to tell myself it's inevitable, but I can't bring myself to really believe it - I think unfortunately this means it's going to hit me pretty hard when it actually happens.