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How did the mental damage express itself, more specifically? Not necessarily doubting it, but I'm curious what you feel the effects were on you.
by jimmaswell 10y ago
How did the mental damage express itself, more specifically? Not necessarily doubting it, but I'm curious what you feel the effects were on you.
- losteric 10y agoI never visited a psych so I don't know the right terms, but it was probably some form of derealization. Reality always felt shallow, every experience lacked detail and substance... that served as the foundation for other problems. Mechanically, I suspect the derealization resulted from under-trained neurons/networks that couldn't accurately feed forward perceptions of the world. Once I got to college, I spent the vast majority of my time outside and offline... after a month I distinctly remember noticing how everything felt so real. After a year I'd realized and unwound most of the neurosis on my own.