Money motivates me. Without it I couldn't afford things I need and/or help my family. I'm in my early thirties and still feel like a kid, don't want to take res

Money motivates me. Without it I couldn't afford things I need and/or help my family. I'm in my early thirties and still feel like a kid, don't want to take responsibility and feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. But it's just being selfish.