My past self empathizes with you. I'm not sure if it helps, but life can change, and even though everyday repetitive things will always be dull, being already h

My past self empathizes with you. I'm not sure if it helps, but life can change, and even though everyday repetitive things will always be dull, being already happy can make it a lot more bearable, interesting even. Sometimes really silly things can keep you up. Since moving to this city (são paulo), just getting out of the house in daytime puts a smile in my face, because it brings back how uncomfortable I was living in the other places I did, and makes me feel slightly better, even though generally other aspects of life will always kinda suck. YMMV, though, as always.