I have looked at CFAR before, and have inhaled any amount of self development literature. The only thing I don't struggle to find intrinsic motivation for is p

I have looked at CFAR before, and have inhaled any amount of self development literature. The only thing I don't struggle to find intrinsic motivation for is programming. I am yet to find a long term goal that resonates at all. All success so far in my life feels entirely attributable to getting bored and saying "what else is there?" and/or seeking external validation. I earn just enough to fly business class whenever I fly because I enjoy the comfort aspect and the external validation that comes with it. The next financial jump is likely to come from wanting to fly private, because why not? It seems self evident to me that this is deeply unhealthy, but ironically I'm yet to find a solution.