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I was taking 60mg of adderall daily. It made me a monster. My doctor kept upping my dose so I could "feel it" and I got meaner and meaner toward my wife. Eventu

by wincy 10y ago

I was taking 60mg of adderall daily. It made me a monster. My doctor kept upping my dose so I could "feel it" and I got meaner and meaner toward my wife. Eventually she gave me an ultimatum: her and my daughter or the adderall. The three weeks after stopping adderall were awful. Eventually I got productive but not nearly as productive as I had been at work. I was ashamed at how difficult it was for me to accomplish simple tasks, not because I couldn't do them but because I'd do literally anything but my job as often as possible. After a few months and having a long heart to heart with my wife, we agreed to try adderall again but very differently. The main rule is that she's the ultimate decider if I can take it. I take 5mg twice a day and feel so much better. I'm productive without totally destroying my life.

lfowles 10y ago
FWIW, a lot of people on /r/ADHD report having less anger issues on Vyvanse. It is pretty expensive if your insurance won't help you out though.
- wincy 10y ago
  Thanks, I've considered Vyvanse, but the 5mg twice a day seems to be working great. I'm motivated at work without being a monster at home. I'm also staying away from alcohol as the two seem to interact really negatively (probably because they both affect dopamine). And ultimately, I trust and allow my wife to make the call on if I'm doing OK (ADHD is weird in that it can be hard to really know your own mental state or how well you're doing at any given time).
LordHumungous 10y ago
The stuff is not a joke, especially for people who are prone to addiction. A friend of mine was in a similar situation to you and I started buying it off him for work. After a while I found myself calling psychiatrists telling them about my adult ADHD symptoms. Luckily they all saw through my bs. It totally fucks with your brain chemistry so that once you remove it, you cannot function. It's a real drug for sure. When I read people online talking about how amazing it is and talking as if there's no downside, red flags go up in my head. It sounds like what every early stage addict says.

by wincy 10y ago

lfowles 10y ago

FWIW, a lot of people on /r/ADHD report having less anger issues on Vyvanse. It is pretty expensive if your insurance won't help you out though.

wincy 10y ago
Thanks, I've considered Vyvanse, but the 5mg twice a day seems to be working great. I'm motivated at work without being a monster at home. I'm also staying away from alcohol as the two seem to interact really negatively (probably because they both affect dopamine). And ultimately, I trust and allow my wife to make the call on if I'm doing OK (ADHD is weird in that it can be hard to really know your own mental state or how well you're doing at any given time).

LordHumungous 10y ago

The stuff is not a joke, especially for people who are prone to addiction. A friend of mine was in a similar situation to you and I started buying it off him for work. After a while I found myself calling psychiatrists telling them about my adult ADHD symptoms. Luckily they all saw through my bs. It totally fucks with your brain chemistry so that once you remove it, you cannot function. It's a real drug for sure. When I read people online talking about how amazing it is and talking as if there's no downside, red flags go up in my head. It sounds like what every early stage addict says.