I know this just sounds like me being jaded and cynical but being completely open and honest: I feel like filmmaking lost me some time in the last 10 years or s

I know this just sounds like me being jaded and cynical but being completely open and honest: I feel like filmmaking lost me some time in the last 10 years or so. Might be because of age, I don't know, but I used to be a huge film buff, huge. If you had me filling out a bio about myself and asked me to list interests then "Movies" would be right up there at the top of the list. I loved going to movies, I loved watching them at home, I loved talking about them, I loved knowing little facts and details about them. I used to be able to tell you the name of any major production company from the first half-second of their intro. I used to watch individual scenes over and over again until I memorized them. Filmmaking was always a delicate balance between creators and business, and I feel like the 2000s are when business finally took over. I'm reminded of the famous morning meeting scene in Robert Altman's "The Player" where a new hotshot producer explains why he thinks creativity should be removed entirely from the filmmaking process, and proceeds to describe an alternative that is horrifyingly close to what we have today. I have absolutely no illusions about Hollywood prior to my disillusionment. It's always been a cesspit, but it was a beautiful cesspit that seemed to create wonder in spite of itself. Now it's basically just Disney-in-screen-form, everything - and I mean everything - is carefully driven by the beancounters. The last little vestiges of creativity and brilliance were finally squeezed out by the arrival of global markets. Bland, boring sells. And I read threads like this where people argue about how lazy filmmaking isn't really lazy filmmaking because X Y or Z and all I think is you're moving deck chairs on the titanic. This isn't about soundtracks or sound effects, it's about movies-as-business rather than movies-as-entertainment. I get it makes the companies major bank, and I get that there's no going back. I'm not ranting saying we should regress. But speaking personally movies went from a big part of my life to something I find extremely off-putting, boring and frankly a little stupid. I miss enjoying movies.