A) I got my first full time paid job at age 41. Let me recommend the book "What color is your parachute?" B) It sounds like you are having an identity crisis b

A) I got my first full time paid job at age 41. Let me recommend the book "What color is your parachute?" B) It sounds like you are having an identity crisis because you are nearly done with school. You know how to be a student. You don't know how to be an employee. I went to college basically for that reason. I did the employee thing for over five years. I now do freelance work. I like it better. Point being: you need money. That doesn't necessarily mean you need a job. Best.