I'm sorry you are in this situation :| For now, maybe you can consider suicide watch. I know it sucks but it might save your life. My other advice is that whe

I'm sorry you are in this situation :| For now, maybe you can consider suicide watch. I know it sucks but it might save your life. My other advice is that when you have a little energy you could look into Stoicism. It's a coping strategy and it really helps! You might be able to live a full and fulfilling life under stoicism practice despite of your current situation / future situation. I wish you the best. Stay strong <3