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Hmm, let's see mate... I'm 34 years old, with a stupid Computer Science diploma that worths absolutely nothing, unemployed since July 2015, forced to live with

Hmm, let's see mate... I'm 34 years old, with a stupid Computer Science diploma that worths absolutely nothing, unemployed since July 2015, forced to live with my parents as I have no other choice, I'm totally broke, not married, no kids, no one is hiring me because I have experience as a technician and as assistant systems administrator (thanks "cloud" for making me completely unnecessary), and I owe more than 200,000 euros in debt. Am I suicidal? Nope. Should I have been? ...why? :/ The point is mate, most of the times we are forced to do things that go against our will or our dreams. Right now I feel stuck as you, I have no one by my side, not a single friend and I mean it when I say not a single one, but you see the point is to enjoy something you have that others lack. What I often do is to browse on YouTube and seek for motivation. I look for people with disabilities or whatsoever that thirst for life and are always positive. If I was born able-bodied, why not appreciate it with all my heart and embrace this given gift and hope for a better day? We fall, we rise, and that's how life is mate. If you need to chat, I'm here. Keep your head up, safe your dignity and your pride, and move forward. Life is short, enjoy it now you can. Cheers.

personlurking 10y ago
I'm also mid-30s, no degree, still no career, employed part-time, barely scrape by w/ nothing in the bank, not married, no kids, extremely few friends (in other countries), still trying to figure out what my skills are. I'm not suicidal per se (don't think I'd ever attempt it), but I do wonder why I'm here, in the larger sense. If it weren't for my undying love of learning and of the examined life, I'd have gone off the deep end decades ago. Think of depression as a cloudy sky, whether that's Portugal cloudy or London cloudy, the point is to remember the sky is not actually cloudy, it's forever blue, you just can't see it at the moment. Keep looking, you will.
- tluyben2 10y ago
  Not what you meant but not having actual cloudy skies helps; living in the south of europe (PT/ES) instead of north (NL/UK) made hard times a lot easier. Somehow it does not seem important but when your month sucks you do not want to wake up in cold, rain and clouds. Opening your window and feeling warm sun does a lot. It is just the bit of lift you need sometimes.
  - personlurking 10y ago
    That's certainly a view I hadn't applied to myself until now, but yeah, I've been living in sunny climes for the last several years (BR/PT).
  - ajeet_dhaliwal 10y ago
    Yes true, a lot of people like myself are affected by seasonal affective disorder.

personlurking 10y ago

I'm also mid-30s, no degree, still no career, employed part-time, barely scrape by w/ nothing in the bank, not married, no kids, extremely few friends (in other countries), still trying to figure out what my skills are. I'm not suicidal per se (don't think I'd ever attempt it), but I do wonder why I'm here, in the larger sense. If it weren't for my undying love of learning and of the examined life, I'd have gone off the deep end decades ago. Think of depression as a cloudy sky, whether that's Portugal cloudy or London cloudy, the point is to remember the sky is not actually cloudy, it's forever blue, you just can't see it at the moment. Keep looking, you will.

tluyben2 10y ago
Not what you meant but not having actual cloudy skies helps; living in the south of europe (PT/ES) instead of north (NL/UK) made hard times a lot easier. Somehow it does not seem important but when your month sucks you do not want to wake up in cold, rain and clouds. Opening your window and feeling warm sun does a lot. It is just the bit of lift you need sometimes.
- personlurking 10y ago
  That's certainly a view I hadn't applied to myself until now, but yeah, I've been living in sunny climes for the last several years (BR/PT).
- ajeet_dhaliwal 10y ago
  Yes true, a lot of people like myself are affected by seasonal affective disorder.