Find the people loving you, your mother and father best, or your siblings, parteners. Know more about them, their expectation, theri desire, their fear, their

Find the people loving you, your mother and father best, or your siblings, parteners. Know more about them, their expectation, theri desire, their fear, their confusion, their pain, try to make them happy, as much as you can, in any possible ways. You should not care about too much about yourself, life on yourself is meanningless, people live together from early ages. First, you ought to make the people nearest to you happy, if you do good, then you can make more people happy. This is the simplest way. I also have wonder about such kind of problems about right or wrong, meaning, life solution, religion, philosophy for a long time. I even went to be a buddhism monk for several years, but problems never disappear. Now I accept that human are social annimal, so melding into the people near you, you will feel not like a sucker/loser. I understand the feeling very well. But it's difficult to change, I have pay great to have some kind of change in my life. Remeber, doing the smallest thing with obvious meaning to people loving you and you love, is much more meaningful than doing hugest thing with little help. That's my experience.