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> But that’s where the anger ended, in not being white or a man or coding since I was two or some combination of the three. This wasn’t going to work. Coding wa
by matt_wulfeck 10y ago
> But that’s where the anger ended, in not being white or a man or coding since I was two or some combination of the three. This wasn’t going to work. Coding wasn’t going to work. I didn’t belong.
What's interesting is that white men, with no gender or racial bogeyman to hide behind, have created the term "imposter syndrome" to explain feelings that are almost universal in this field, and also very evident in this woman's essay. You don't belong. You don't think like them. Your mind is different. If only you programmed since you were 5 on your family's Amiga.
It's sad for me to see gender and race become the focus of her disappointment in her career. In a twisted way it puts even more distance between her and other engineers who invariably feel the same way but are trying to cope with it on their own.
Maybe she's worried they'll "say wrong things, and then I have to explain why those things are wrong" ...