Just for the sake of a contrasting story here: refusing to take medication for almost a decade ended up almost totally destroying my life. I came dangerously cl

Just for the sake of a contrasting story here: refusing to take medication for almost a decade ended up almost totally destroying my life. I came dangerously close to suicide. Thankfully I'm finally back on medication now and am slowly rebuilding. I've seen the same thing happen to several friends. I don't mean to invalidate curun1r's experience, but I do want to make sure that people will not read a post like that and conclude, as I once wrongly did, that they are better off without medication. A bad early experience with a psychiatrist who prescribed the wrong medication for me resulted in this same experience of emotional numbness, and quitting my medication to avoid that was exactly what led me down an extremely dangerous path. It's the single decision I regret the most in my entire life. For some people, medication really is the best chance of living something approaching a normal life. You may try medication and come to the same conclusion as curun1r, but please do not dismiss the idea out of hand, and if it isn't working well for you, try working with your psychiatrist to make things better, or maybe just getting a new psychiatrist altogether, before giving up.