I was here about 10 years ago. Sick of technology. No longer wanted to learn about it. Just went into survival mode because of self-loathing that I was just con

I was here about 10 years ago. Sick of technology. No longer wanted to learn about it. Just went into survival mode because of self-loathing that I was just contributing something that I no longer felt was a good thing. Here's what I've learned since: Part of what you are experiencing is real. This will never leave you and will transform you. It is part of maturation. It is natural to start seeing that what matters in the world are its life, its people, its wonder, and its love, and that you have human failings which over and over again will leave you feeling guilt for not reaching a potential. Or perhaps you will transcend this and just be ok with everything, or to devote your life to doing everything the best way you can, and accepting you will fail along the way in a way that limits self-pity. Part of what you are experiencing is due to your health and circumstance. This is something you can affect. If you are tired, maybe you need more sleep and exercise. Maybe CPAP or an oral appliance from your dentist could help with sleep apnea. Maybe you shouldn't drink before you go to bed as often. Maybe you could see a recommended psychiatrist and get some medication. Maybe yoga, a martial art, tai-chi, or guided meditation would help. Maybe you should read more. Computers in their many forms, but particularly mobile computers ("phones") are way too distracting. So is streaming entertainment. Too much of our lives are wasted on them. Go buy a bicycle, or some running/walking clothes and shoes, and get out into nature. Buy a tent, camp stove, ramen, sleeping bag, inflatable mat, and backpack and go camping. Feel like what you are doing is B.S.? If you're smart, join Geekcorps and travel to another country doing something cool: http://www.iesc.org/geekcorps http://www.iesc.org/geekcorps . Even the peace corps has jobs in dev/IT like: https://www.peacecorps.gov/returned-volunteers/careers/career-link/software-developer-junior/ https://www.peacecorps.gov/returned-volunteers/careers/caree... https://www.glassdoor.com/Jobs/Peace-Corps-software-engineer-Jobs-EI_IE14903.0,11_KO12,29.htm https://www.glassdoor.com/Jobs/Peace-Corps-software-engineer... Or if you're an engineer: http://www.ewb-usa.org/ http://www.ewb-usa.org/