This is soooo much me, except that I've never had it during meditation. This actually caused me some problems trying to learn to meditate - I can't grasp focusi

This is soooo much me, except that I've never had it during meditation. This actually caused me some problems trying to learn to meditate - I can't grasp focusing on something if I can't have the internal vocalisation with it. I finally settled on making inner sounds along with monotonous drumming - the vocalisation will kinda tune out or get quieter, at least. Thanks for describing it for me, btw :) I have that monologue as well - complete along with your description of images. If I narrate them, they are much better.