"Why does this even bothers you?" Because he's human and despite every fibre of his wit possibly thinking otherwise, he has some unshakeable suspicion that he

"Why does this even bothers you?" Because he's human and despite every fibre of his wit possibly thinking otherwise, he has some unshakeable suspicion that he has a spirit or is at least more than a mere golem? I dunno, that's what puts me off the idea.