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"One man and a thousand women is a potential civilization, whereas one woman and a thousand men is a horror movie." Very well put. "Men, therefore, must striv

"One man and a thousand women is a potential civilization, whereas one woman and a thousand men is a horror movie." Very well put. "Men, therefore, must strive very hard for 'best'" Aren't I getting a lesson in this. Spent most of my life in pure abjection until a doctor, with some actual competency, prescribed me some ritalin. You would not believe how mad I am. Now I'm trying to play catch-up to be the best and it's absolutely infuriating to hear people tell me to "relax". I went through unimaginable hell because the wrong men were promoted to higher positions and nobody told them to eat shit. I can't even recourse to a notion of ultimate karma and fairness because I've realized how ultimately such notions are a case of the sourest grapes over losing in the competition. There are MANY terrible and incompetent men and I want to devour them all. But my wants are nothing compared to what I need to do (develop skills and behaviors that are marketable and which act like positive feedback on another). My apologies for the little detour but figured that someone here has an inkling of what I feel and it's nice to know that one's turbulence isn't a lone storm.

cloudjacker 10y ago
And ritalin fixed this? What did I just read
- LizardLarry 10y ago
  Imagine how maddening it is to have a million random thoughts swirling through your brain and you can't execute on any of them unless you "feel" like it. It's life changing to have (better) control of executive functioning. And it's sobering if you have a lifetime of being moralized at by lesser people for things that aren't too much under your control.
  - trexrun620 10y ago
    https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/54q6ha/serious_therapists_of_reddit_have_you_ever_come/ https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/54q6ha/serious_t... I don't mean to imply you have this disorder. However, in my limited experience, I have found viewing anyone as inherently "lesser" has only been destructive for everyone involved, especially oneself. People are different, they all have their crosses to bear, just as you do.
    - LizardLarry 10y ago
      Well NPD could be a possible "problem". The problem with that though is that when one goes through certain situations, where one is clearly the "brightest" guy in the room while "less bright" men have the reins of power, it reinforces that self-ranking system. If I have a complex analogous to NPD, it's because I've been through enough shit to give me a certain level of confidence. "People are different, they all have their crosses to bear, just as you do." Some people just suck and should be imprisoned, killed, or disbarred from any position of authority. A lot of sucky people somehow get into positions, including being responsible for the care of homeless veterans. "Lesser" people do exist. But I know precisely I'm not the shit. A major irony is that as the capacity for directed work and improvement improves, I'm more and more aware how "far" I am from having a certain comfortableness in my present situation. It's the anxiety of status, because one knows what happens to those with low status. It's the anxiety of death and waste because one knows what happens to bodies over time. It's the anxiety of regret because one is stuck with memories of one chemical regime while being in a more able one. The socialite is haunted by memories of being a dullard and .

cloudjacker 10y ago

And ritalin fixed this? What did I just read

LizardLarry 10y ago
Imagine how maddening it is to have a million random thoughts swirling through your brain and you can't execute on any of them unless you "feel" like it. It's life changing to have (better) control of executive functioning. And it's sobering if you have a lifetime of being moralized at by lesser people for things that aren't too much under your control.
- trexrun620 10y ago
  https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/54q6ha/serious_therapists_of_reddit_have_you_ever_come/ https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/54q6ha/serious_t... I don't mean to imply you have this disorder. However, in my limited experience, I have found viewing anyone as inherently "lesser" has only been destructive for everyone involved, especially oneself. People are different, they all have their crosses to bear, just as you do.
  - LizardLarry 10y ago
    Well NPD could be a possible "problem". The problem with that though is that when one goes through certain situations, where one is clearly the "brightest" guy in the room while "less bright" men have the reins of power, it reinforces that self-ranking system. If I have a complex analogous to NPD, it's because I've been through enough shit to give me a certain level of confidence. "People are different, they all have their crosses to bear, just as you do." Some people just suck and should be imprisoned, killed, or disbarred from any position of authority. A lot of sucky people somehow get into positions, including being responsible for the care of homeless veterans. "Lesser" people do exist. But I know precisely I'm not the shit. A major irony is that as the capacity for directed work and improvement improves, I'm more and more aware how "far" I am from having a certain comfortableness in my present situation. It's the anxiety of status, because one knows what happens to those with low status. It's the anxiety of death and waste because one knows what happens to bodies over time. It's the anxiety of regret because one is stuck with memories of one chemical regime while being in a more able one. The socialite is haunted by memories of being a dullard and .