I'm forcing myself to accept that I deserve good things, so I got an amazing apartment downtown in my city that has an incredible view. The plan is to renovate

I'm forcing myself to accept that I deserve good things, so I got an amazing apartment downtown in my city that has an incredible view. The plan is to renovate this apartment and make it a home. The mentality was so bad that for the last 15 years, I didn't even have a bed. I would just sleep on the floor. Last year, by fluke, I ended up in a place where I had a regular bed. It was foreign to me. All kinds of fucked up.