This is an interesting article to read and think alongside: http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20160928-how-anxiety-warps-your-perception http://www.bbc.com/futur

This is an interesting article to read and think alongside: http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20160928-how-anxiety-warps-your-perception http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20160928-how-anxiety-warps-y... https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=12603748 https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=12603748 The poignant comment for me: "You don’t take it for granted because you understand you’re playing by someone else’s rules. Even today, Ricky and I often feel like that. Given the long odds we beat to get here, sometimes in our heads, our world feels very fragile; at any moment, the clock could strike midnight." Very much like an underlying anxiety and background survival-threat. I never went to Stanford or to an elite school. I don't feel that I grew up excessively poor, but I was fortunate that I grew up in a household where we didn't excessively bought All The Things. (That came later in a period in my life when I made enough to indulge in consumer goods for a few years). What I'm most grateful for was a period in my life where I was working deep with meditation and shamanic practices to address very intense emotions -- including that feeling of "our world fees very fragile". I don't know where that came from, and yet it would pop in from time to time. There is also a path out of that where the world opens up and you realize this inner freedom -- to play, to laugh, to love, going beyond simply surviving from one day to the next.