Hang in there. I'm kinda in the same boat. I think bupenorpine did help me. I wish it was easier to get. I can say this, I believe it helped me with my drin

Hang in there. I'm kinda in the same boat. I think bupenorpine did help me. I wish it was easier to get. I can say this, I believe it helped me with my drinking, and I'm on genetic bupenorpine, not the Suboxone(has nalaxone). As to friends--I am very lonely. I think I'm friendly, but don't have friends. Part of my problem is I made friends with people much older than myself, and they die, and I am not a extrovert. It seems like all my friends were extroverts. When I was younger, it seemed easier to remain friends with exes, but as I've aged, they moved on, or as one told me, women can't be friends after a certain point in a relationship. If I knew that, I wish I didn't push for intimacy. I look back, and I miss the friend I made in that relationship more than anything else. I haven't wanted to wake up in years, but I'm still here. Just when I think I've had enough of it, I have days where I feel o.k., not o.k. like in my twenties, but not suicidial. I know exercise has been mentioned here too much, but light walks have really helped me. I do need to do them daily. I really don't have any advice, other than hang in there. I do know we are not alone. I wish it was easier for men to find friends.