I'm not sure if I replied to you. I think I replied to myself. Also I'm new to HN so I didn't know how to check for messages. Yeah it sucks, but you know, I ma

I'm not sure if I replied to you. I think I replied to myself. Also I'm new to HN so I didn't know how to check for messages. Yeah it sucks, but you know, I made the decisions to get here. Also I've burned bridges too, which made me concerned like "How will I get a job without references?" but factories you know, they'll hire just about anybody. I work on web development (freelance) on my spare time, but I'm bad at pricing/businessman and also I'm not that great (reinvent the wheel, use bad code, etc...). I'm really into technology, aviation, robotics, programming, I want to be one of those that I read about in the news. Space. AI, etc... it just sucks being there. I'm trapped. I have this miserable look on my face all the time. I feel bad that people see it. But I can't hide it too, I hate it. But other people also hate this job, but they don't seem to make it other people's problems. So I just day dream while I lose myself cutting meat in the factory. I dream of ideas, designs, etc... I fear I am delusional, if I make the money then I must not be right? So far I haven't made any money so... not going very well haha. I was in a box, for the last two years, now it's a corner, hopefully it'll be a room(box again)/house. Yeah it's hard to keep sane. Sorry I ranted.