For what it's worth, you story seems to be the common one for gifted kids. Maybe with less setting things on fire usually. Although resenting your intelligence

For what it's worth, you story seems to be the common one for gifted kids. Maybe with less setting things on fire usually. Although resenting your intelligence seems to be doing the exact opposite of you were told to do. The rational thing would be to instead use it for any purpose you see fit, irrespective of anyone's jugement.