Is this attitude something you are satisfied to stay with, or is it something you are interested in changing? Is your end goal to eventually be something like m

Is this attitude something you are satisfied to stay with, or is it something you are interested in changing? Is your end goal to eventually be something like most people who are able to attribute meaning to experiences and stuff? I am assuming that you did all those things (travelling, family, etc) because you thought you'd get some sense of fulfilment out of them. It's an honest question. I can imagine that a life without meaning would feel, well... meaningless.