> Now I'm dumb and worthless. My thoughts are that to even have the job that you have now, your programming/coding skills are years above mine. You may feel du

> Now I'm dumb and worthless. My thoughts are that to even have the job that you have now, your programming/coding skills are years above mine. You may feel dumb and worthless, but someone like me would be sitting there going "Wow, I wish that i could do that." It's all about perspective. > Death doesn't seem so bad anymore. Then I don't have to think about all this. I used to be a full time tech support guy, then desktop support, then sysadmin. I felt dumb and worthless at that job most of the time. I made a complete career change into healthcare and made my sysadmin stuff more of a hobby. 10 years later, i make way less but overall I'm happier. perhaps some new hobbies will help? one of them might even lead to a new career. along those lines, i'm a paramedic, and we see death from a way different perspective. I've been there just after someone pulled the trigger and have seen just how heart wrenching it can be for the friends and family. Please talk to someone. I'm not sure where you are, but there are resources available. :/