>>I don't know where I went wrong. I used to be >>intelligent. I used to be liked by my teams. I >>used to be good at puzzles. >>Now I'm dumb and worthless. I

>>I don't know where I went wrong. I used to be >>intelligent. I used to be liked by my teams. I >>used to be good at puzzles. >>Now I'm dumb and worthless. I would like to address this part only. I used to work for a startup where conditions got worse and bosses got greedy to the point of increasing our commute time by 1.5 hours and reducing our paychecks using new tax cuts as an excuse. During the time I was there, I was the "rockstar programmer", the "super-committer", the "feynmann of scheduling algorithms" and as soon as I quit, I was the shameful person of broken promises and worst coder ever in history. Months later I was still told that former employers were saying things like "fixing code he wrote" and "cleaning up his mess" from a few collegues and friends. Since I know for a fact that I was a valued employee one day and worse than dirt the next day, I don't blame myself for this change. Neither should you. You are the constant. Your intelligence did not change. Your character did not change. You are just responding to a new environment. It seems your surroundings changed considerably and some adaptation is required. I suggest you figure out what changed and how to adapt. It requires some work, some persistence, some challenges may lie ahead, but it is nothing to despair about. Your image among others is a fleeting social construct prone to change with just a few words, just a few jobs completed, just a few successes.