I know that i will slowly start to go mad if i do not do something active regularly. Madness (while mostly sane) is a strong negative motivator. I don't know w

I know that i will slowly start to go mad if i do not do something active regularly. Madness (while mostly sane) is a strong negative motivator. I don't know what "makes" me do it. I tell myself I'm going to do something and then I have to do it. It's easy to say I'm going to do something but once it's said I must follow through. I call it writing a check with my mouth that my body has to cash.