I would try to find a book that balances managable and brain stretchy. _Calculus made easy_ was good for me at a certain level of understanding (yes algebra and

I would try to find a book that balances managable and brain stretchy. _Calculus made easy_ was good for me at a certain level of understanding (yes algebra and geometry, no calculus). Try things at a library, and get recommendations, until you find one that turns you on. There's no penalty for trying a book and aborting after 1 page ;)