A lot of us have been there. Hell, I'm there now, but in a far more mild way than I have been in the past, luckily for me. It got so bad at one point a few ye

A lot of us have been there. Hell, I'm there now, but in a far more mild way than I have been in the past, luckily for me. It got so bad at one point a few years ago that I wound up taking four whole months of medical leave due to severe depression and panic attacks, so I know how bad it can be, and you have my sympathy. If you think it would help, you might look into doing the same. I know it can be super hard to motivate yourself to take the necessary steps when you're depressed, but hopefully the thought of some relief is enough of a motivator, if only barely. The first step is to see a psychiatrist if you haven't already. If you need/want someone (not a mental health professional) to talk to, my e-mail address is in my profile. Either way, I hope things get better for you soon :)