Consider the types of goals you have pursued, what effect these have had on you, and those you'd like to pursue: http://slatestarcodex.com/2016/07/18/pushing-a

Consider the types of goals you have pursued, what effect these have had on you, and those you'd like to pursue: http://slatestarcodex.com/2016/07/18/pushing-and-pulling-goals/ http://slatestarcodex.com/2016/07/18/pushing-and-pulling-goa... It's becoming neglected at this point, but the archives are solid: http://thelastpsychiatrist.com http://thelastpsychiatrist.com Helps one cultivate a little perspective and introspection. Maybe read Yates' Revolutionary Road. TL;DR is that having a self image and/or dreams that don't match your actual ambition, commitment, and situation is fucking poisonous. Read the novel though, if you've got time. Think about how you can be happy. Like, what happiness even is or would be for you. Consider consulting: Marcus Aurelius, Seneca, Epicurus and other Epicureans, Ecclesiastes. Try Eastern sources if you like, but be aware it's much harder to sort the wheat from the crystal-healing-easy-zen chaff than it is with Western works. Don't expect too much with anything short of a sustained, intense, difficult struggle over years or decades—in other words, lower your the expectations of what you'll get out part-time work on material aimed at monks who immersed themselves in this stuff all the time. It can be really good even just dipping your toes in it, but don't expect magic or quick solutions—or solutions at all, for that matter.